three

three
three is a good number
three is now my number
I am lucky to have three
I count my blessing every day for three
I hold my three a little closer now, knowing they are my only three.

We have found out recently that the possibilities of us having another child is very slim and most likely none.  This has been extremely hard news to hear for us.  I have spent a few months coming to terms with the information.  Garrett and I felt like we should have 4, but maybe that is after this life.  I know without a doubt that miracles do happen.  If the Lord wants it to happen, it will.  But for me and my happiness and my sanity I am now living for 3.  I feel like the last 2 years I have been too focused on number 4.  It was making me very sad wondering what, and how and and why I was not pregnant and could not get pregnant.  Why I was having miscarriages and what was wrong with my body, diet, exercise etc.  The news was hard to hear, but it has given me the clarity to move on and find closure so to speak with the situation.

I am very happy to have my three kids.  They bring me so much happiness, my family is my greatest joy.  I am truly blessed and have been blessed with the spirit in facing this trial.  I am now content and very happy with having 3 and three is my new number!